This was a little text sent to my Mother today, we’ve been chatting about aging and all that comes with it.
Ah life. Yes I am very much trying to condition myself as early as possible to be an ocean refusing no river, so I can handle and embrace change and decline when it comes and see the beauty, albeit at times scary and poignant. It is just such a rich and strange experience to have life! So very wild. I do often ponder on the meaning of it all, why we’re even here… and I do feel development of my soul through all this. If I’m being completely transparent, my spiritual beliefs are that in some way we ARE God that placed itself in this existence to experience the glorious inconsistency of duality… cuz I imagine that everything being entirely perfect in oneness may have just got a little boring! Hehe that really the point to life is just to experience the vividness of all the highs and lows, to truly revel in the feeling of pure joy and pure pain… and then at the end of it all, we go home… back to the oneness. Or rather perhaps we go back to the true realization that the duality was an illusion, and it is truly all oneness all the time. Anyway, so to say, I do try to remember those things when I get in deep feeling my own mortality. I really try to make a friend in death. Makes me realize that what ever comes my way is absolutely okay. It’s all a perfect part of the experience of my incarnation.♥️ Surely easier said than done sometimes when we’re deeply in the trenches of the human experience, because there’s endless things coming into our field of awareness at all times, it can be overwhelming. I do try to see the beauty, though. Through bliss and tragedy, I do feel in a way it is all perfect. On a micro scale in terms of my own life, and on a macro scale in terms of the grand scheme of this planet and beyond… I trust that there is balance, that though at times all I can see is chaos, that there is truly something way grander than me that sees it all and keeps it all in a beyond cosmic balance. Either way, it helps me sleep better at night lol. I will always choose to search for peace and love and act with those notions at the forefront in my thoughts and actions… and that starts with loving and accepting my own little changes as I get closer to my friend Death.